I am leaving. I have started the process. I feel scared and excited at the same time. I think he knows, although he has not said anything but I can just tell. There are telltale signs. Our relationship right now is fantastic. He is being the man I fell in love with, kind, thoughtful, attentive, helpful, doing domestic chores. He keeps saying he has changed but I have heard it all before – dozens of times! I believed him the first time, and the second and the third and……………………

It would be so tempting to stay. It seems like it would be easier and I guess in a way it would but I can’t risk it. I just can’t. I know that as soon as I get back into that marital bed, he will start to relax and the old him will emerge – and I just don’t know how bad it will get. 

Meanwhile, the sharks are circling. Our business is in financial crisis but he personally is in even deeper. He wont tell me what’s going on but I know. I just know. And I don’t want to be shark food. I don’t want to stay around so that he can push me in the water whilst he escapes! Wish me luck.