I am sorry to mislead you with that title, but this entry is actually about a man, my man, and he is behaving really, really well right now. He is actually being the model husband. If there were a straw poll to vote for such a person he would be at the top. He is applying himself at work, being considerate, helping with the chores, tidying up after himself – all sorts of stuff that I thought he was incapable of. He is saying nice things to me, giving me space, not putting pressure on me and so forth. It’s fantastic, except, I know it isn’t real. He is doing it because he knows I am leaving. I know he knows although he hasn’t actually said so but I can just tell. I suspect he has somehow found out that I am writing this blog (been spying on my computer) and has been reading it. I suspect too that he has been reading my journal because last night he said something to me that he can only have concluded from reading my journal.

So, what do I do? Accept his word that he has changed and this is how it is going to be forever or stick to my plans and leave? You tell me!

I do not wish it in a million years but this would be easier if he was still abusing me.  

Anyway, husband dear, if you are reading this why don’t you show me that you truly love me by letting me go. Nothing is forever. If, once I have moved out we find that we cannot live without each other and I can see that you truly have changed then maybe there is a chance.